On Becoming a Christian

by Sarah

When do you become a Christian? Is it that instant you curl your knees 
down to the floor and, in as much humility and sincerity as you can muster, 
humbly ask the Lord and creator of everything in our little world to forgive 
you of all the times you have and will screw up? When do the mind and soul 
fully grasp the concept of the innocent death? I never fully have to this 
day. I doubt I ever really will. Understanding like that is fleeting, hard 
to hold onto. Sometimes I voluntarily let go and surrender myself to the 
shallow cares of this world.

When you strip away all your talents, looks, body, culture, wants, desires, 
experiences... what is left? And yes, as Joy said, there is something left. 
You are not your personality. Personality is an expression of who you 
really are. Personality is shaped by experiences, wants desire, culture... 
Someone else could haves life experiences that mirror mine, and yet be 
completely different. Why? Why is it that our souls make everything in our 
worldly lives as we see it, yet it is so hard to scrape away the clutches of 
worldly life to see our souls?